A few years ago my mom suffered a minor non- life threatening stroke which spiraled me into the abyss of frantic fear of the impending doom of the death of my parents. Now my dad is losing his teeth? How can that be, I am not even there yet. I still need my parents in my life. Who is going to walk me down the isle? Who is going to Bless my first child? Where will I go if I need parental refuge? Which brings me to now. Why have I been chasing after the minor things of my life? I fee...

1. Dahlia Did you ever think of what was to be When you lay there all bright eyed with anticipation Did you ever think it would end –the pain That tore you up and left you scarred, changed Did you ever think that smile would fade That came when you burped and swayed with intoxication Did you think the world would change When you asked it to Did you laugh when you cried and thought you’d cheat death into living? 2. Sometimes My thoughts haunt me Deep longings, high dreams ...